OK, here it is!

I know, I know, I should just be grateful to be alive! It doesn't change anything! I am still vain! Perspectives have been changed forever though! At 48, I hope that is a good thing! I hope to be a better, pleasant, kinder, more loving and lovable kind of person. A person that will impact everyone's life encountered through out the day, and, impact it in a good way. I already was fairly pleasant and kind to begin with, or I think so anyway. I want to be remembered fondly please!

I'm a little

vain . . . and worried! I'm afraid I will not look like my profile photo again. And I am sorry, but I think I was a very pretty woman! :( I had some serious injury to my face and the right side is fallen . . . and cannot get up! lol Seriously, because of the car accident, there has been some nerve and muscle damage to the eye area on the right side of the face where I received the brunt of the force from the truck that hit us. I wish I could make myself show you the photos I have been taking! :( Maybe when it gets better. My first appointment isn't until December 11th, so I will be looking like this for awhile. I've already warned the guys at the office! I told them I would not be that beautiful girl they were used to seeing at the office anymore and I had one of the guys ask me "When were you a beautiful girl?" phfffft!

3 months, 2 weeks and 3 days lost forever

Have you ever met someone and afterwards thought to yourself "What a waste of time and energy!?!" I lived to be 47 yo and that had never happened to me. I have a friend to thank for this, but hey, she did not know any better. She only knew him from work. We all know that the face we present at work is not always the same face we wear at home with family or with friends. I like to think to myself that this man does not remember me like that. Well, on the last day words were said and things were done that probably should not have been, but by then, he was asking for it! lol I have come to understand that what he did, he did because that is the kind of person he is and it is what he had in his heart and it had NOTHING to do with who I am! There was no love or respect there and I consider it a blessing and a gift that he walked away the way that he did!

Took an automobile accident to put things in perspective for me. I hope I have never made anyone think that it was a waste of time and energy knowing me and if I have, I am so sorry and I hope to never do it again. I want to be remembered fondly and I hope people in my life do so!

What could make me feel this way?

Jesse Valdez

9-2-1951

Lubbock, Texas

Really . . .

YES! I thank God I am alive. I was involved in a bad car wreck late night Friday, early Saturday morning. Broken ribs, punctured lung and stitches to my forehead was VERY sobering! Time for a lifestyle change I believe! When I feel better, I will come on here and let you know what happened!

Drum roll please . . .

And the winner is Cassie! Thanks for everyone who played. Not a lot of folks but it was fun none the less I think anyway! Cassie, please email me your addy so I can know where to send your goody bag!

I have had a LOT of changes since the last time I was on here, among them, stuff I have created and have not had a chance to take pics of! But soon!

Thanks to all the ladies that guessed correctly! It was a man's 6-pack of abs! I thought it was some kind of orange bug! lol

Happy Halloween! Meow! lol